Losing a Friend..

I know not what remains
Between u and me..
That wonderful bond we had
Those wonderful memories we shared..
I do not know where I slipped
And went astray.
I do not know what I did
To push u so far away..

At times I have wondered
If i tried too hard,
At times I have thought
I'm trying to make something
Of nothing at all.

I have seen miserable days,
Not hearing from u..
Lived through dark and bleak days,
Not knowing how u are..

I tried too hard,
I gave my all
And in the end
It didnt matter at all
What I thought we had,
Was over before
I had a chance to say goodbye..

4th November, 2007

I remember the accident.
Thinking about the day
Sends shivers up my spine.
Each second, is etched into my memory
Like the light of day I remember...
It took just one wrong step,
It just lasted an instant,
Pain swallowed me whole
Fear filled me up
I almost wept.
The ER confirmed it,
My worst fears were true..
I had torn a ligament.
I had busted my knee
My life hasnt been the same since.
I cant climb the stairs.
I cant play any sports,
I cant even walk properly.
Sometimes I get real sad,
It makes me weep.
It makes me mad.
Another year to get back on my feet,
somehow i'll survive..
Sympathy from strangers,
A lil help from friends,
Has carried me so far.
The journey to recovery is
Slow and long.
I dream of the day
When I can run again....

Its been a month since I tore a ligament in my knee playing football. One long and tough month just coping with the injury. It took me to the depths of sadness at times. A real tough ride it has been so far. At least another 8 months to go before I can think about running again. :((

Life can be tough at times.
Who knows what might happen next.
All we can do and need to do, is keep living.